Blogging for fun

And resolving to enjoy the life I have

I love blogging

I’ve spent the last couple of months or so wondering why I’m blogging.

It’s not that I didn’t have good intent when I started.  It’s not that I didn’t know what I was doing. As a matter of fact, I was really excited about writing, blogging, whatever.  I loved to get a thought, have an experience or bump into a new discovery I can share. I envisioned I could share something that either helped or entertained.

Either way.  It was my way to serve in a fun way.

But somewhere, something not so pleasant happened.  I think I got way too serious.

I started listening to the podcast “gurus” and reading what they were all writing.  I basically drank the Koolaid.  I began to worry about subscription lists and niching down to my underwear.  I didn’t feel “serious” enough about what I was doing.  I was spending lots of money and way too much time trying to “engage”.  Why wasn’t I as “successful” as “they” said I should be?

Also, I was overwhelmed by the tens of thousands of unread emails in my blog’s inbox. I know I would never get to them. Not to mention the multiple “come hither” invitations to subscribe or to buy a course in this or that.

It wasn’t bad enough that I was being targeted multiple times a day by the same people.  I was also getting emails introducing me to the same people I was getting the multiple emails from. It’s insane!

In the meantime my real life relationships suffered.  I buried my thoughts and life in cyberspace.  Hoping to make a difference.  Fretting that I wasn’t doing enough. I wasn’t telling the story I was tasked to share.

It was also a way for me to deal with loss.

The tragedies I experienced this year and the lessons learned in my life are worth sharing.  But I was too busy chasing the dream.  Then when it began to feel inauthentic, I lost interest.

I had to pivot.

So regardless of whether I touch anyone with my blogging or not,  I will continue to blog.  Maybe someone will read and move on or maybe they will leave a comment.  Or maybe they will skip right on over to the latest flavor.

Who cares?

I want to enjoy blogging. I want to enjoy writing. I want to go back to jumping in and out of Nablopomo or Microblogging Mondays like I used to.

And yes. If it touches a life. Heck, if it even gets read.  I’m happy.

I resolve to no longer make myself miserable wondering why I didn’t get more “likes” or “shares”.  I resolve to quit wondering why I lost a twitter follower. I resolve to enjoy the life I have.

Because, truth be told, it IS a wonderful life.

Please note: I reserve the right to delete comments that are offensive or off-topic.

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